Check Baggage: Part One

I stopped for a minute this week to take stock my life; to look forward to the challenges immediately before me and those I’ve recently conquered.

I love my job; but I have difficult classes coming next month that I have to master my management skills for. Which conversely means less and less time to devote to my varied hobbies of gaming; my spiritual quest, school and finally my efforts to cut my emotional baggage free.

Trying to live; trying to push myself in all aspects… its so hard with this weight. The weight of heartbreak, failure, betrayal, sacrifice, doubt… it pushes me down like super gravity to the soul; I feel crushed and anchored to the world unable to rise  into the realm of the spiritual and creative.

The danger is the gravity crushes me… leaves me an empty black hole. I have to relieve it and face the sources of my pain.